When God Gives You A Partner

You know it is very easy to become negative while going through treatment for Cancer.  I mean there is the pain, that never seems to be completely alleviated.  There are the side effects of the chemotherapy ranging from nausea and fatigue to upset stomachs and constipation.  But, for every negative thing I have found as many reasons to be thankful.   Of those things, the one thing that I can report that most thankful for is that I still have the love and support of my number one fan, and friend.

Not enough words can be said about how super supportive my wife has been and continues to be throughout this process.  I thank God each day that He Blessed me with one of the great ones.  While it isn't easy, my wife finds ways to keep me motivated and engaged in the healing process.  She continually finds the silver lining in the cascades of dark, ominous clouds.  Her forever optimism re-fuels and replenishes me.  Without her love and devotion, there is little doubt that I wouldn't be as fas along in the treatment process as I am.

I simply love my wife.  Kimberly you are my rock and I simply couldn't do this without your love and support.

I Am Healed!

I may have some scars, but I'm healed.

The Miracle of Pain Medicine!

Shortly after my latest blog, the pain medicine began to kick in.  Now here is the the kicker.  It immediately relieves the pain and I can start my day.  I can do the basics like take a shower, bodily functions etc.  I even feel somewhat normal.  But anyone that has been on a great deal of narcotics for a while can tell you that the pain relief comes with a cost.  CONSTIPATION!  Yeah Boy.  The pain is gone for a while, but you must pay the piper.  I think I now know more about natural and medicinal laxatives than I ever wanted to know.

But through it all, I keep focusing on the fact that God has allowed this to happen and that He has the final answer to what I am going through.  Even though I may be full of complaints one minute, I am forever grateful that He has seen fit to give me life and to allow me to have just one more day on the EARTH.   What a mighty God we serve!

Fatigue and Other Pains

Today I don't feel like doing anything.  I'm just tired.  It is kind of weird how this works  See, sometimes I am completely wide awake and then suddenly I get this tired feeling all over my body.   Once i get that feeling, I usually sleep for a few minutes.  My wife says it most resembles narcolepsy.  All I know is it is really annoying!  Yet, I try to remain pleasant, up beat and optimistic.  All the While I have to deal with this terrible PAIN that just won't go away.  Despite the high level of narcotics that I am on, the site from where the tumor was removed really freakin' hurts.  There are days when I am pain free.  Most of the time, however, I live with chronic, severe, back and chest pain.  Lord will there ever be any relief?

Purpose: To tell my story the best way that I can

   This Blog started out being about my return to physical fitness after a long absence.  I wanted to maybe just say a word or two that would motivate other people (family and friends) to get back into exercise.  As it turns out, this Blog would transform into something much bigger.  Rather than just be a source of inspiration for folk to return to physical health, this Blog has became much more.  It has become a place where I can relate to you the reader my experiences as I through treatment for one of the most devastating diseases known to man...Cancer! 

Warning, this blog is not for the feint at heart.  I will be very candid with what I am feeling (emotionally), how I physically feel and what I am actually thinking as I go through the treatment.  This Blog is a vast departure from what most folk whom have ever read any of my writings have ever experienced.  Usually, I cloak my true feelings in the shroud of my religious beliefs.  As a result, how I really "feel" gets muted by my religious convictions and beliefs.  However, if you read this blog, you will get the real raw, unabashed, emotion as it is generated.  If you can handle it, keep reading. If you can't handle please feel free to not read any of my publications.  It is important to note though, this is my Blog.  So, if there is anything in it that you find objectionable I invite you to keep it to yourself.  I am not seeking self improvement via this Blog.  Any suggestions for changing posts in this blog will be met with the utmost resistance.